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I Am So Ordinary
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I nearly died I suicided softly
I saw her shadow through the cafe window
I watched you lean across the table
I watched you whisper in her ear

And she is your holy Mary
And I am so ordinary
And you can use me if you want to
I know you need me just like an old soft shoe

She looks like me but a bit prettier
She’s a skater and a ballet dancer
I saw her on your motorcycle
In the seat I thought was meant for me

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And when your mother came to Boston you disappeared
And then I saw you three together
I guess she makes the best impression
With her charming femininity…

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Oh but I am the one you will call when alone
And I am the one who will give when she’s gone
And so I give
So I give

I tell myself that love is truly giving
Somehow I justify this
Hoping you will understand me
Hoping you will love me back

And she is your holy Mary
And I am so ordinary
And she is your Queen Cleopatra
And I’m just your morning after
And she is your Star Spangled Banner
And I am just Frere Jaque
And you can lose me if you want to

And I am so ordinary

I am not the person who is singing
I am the silent one inside
I am not the one who laughs at people’s jokes I just pacify their egos
I am not my house, my car, my songs
They are only just stops along my way
I am like the winter
I’m a dark cold female
With a golden ring of wisdom in my cave

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And it is me who is my enemy
Me who beats me up
Me who makes the monsters
Me who strips my confidence

I am carrying my voice
I am carrying my heart
I am carrying my rhythmn
I am carrying my prayers
But you can’t kill my spirit
It’s soaring and it’s strong
Like a mountain
I’ll go on and on
But when my wings are folded
The brightly colored moth
Blends into the dirt into the ground

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And it’s me who’s too weak
And it’s me who’s too shy
To ask for the thing i love
And it’s me who’s too weak
And it’s me who’s too shy
To ask for the thing i love
That I love

I am walking on the bridge
I am over the water
And I’m scared as hell
But I know there’s something better
Yes I know there’s something
Yes I know, i know, yes i know

That I love
But it’s me
And it’s me
But it’s me

It all started nine years ago
You sat to my left back in school
The future showed itself to me
The god in you, the god in me, stood together like two trees

I was so shy to inquire
If you would like tea sometime
Then in my Mercury
Hand on hand, hand on knee, mercy mercy mercy me

And I believe in love
To be the center of all things
And I believe in love to be the way
And I believe in love
To be the center of all things
And I believe in love to be the way
To find our inner ight

I saw a vision where we
Were opening presents Christmas Day
But we were not alone
The wedding was shotgun
We had a daughter and a son

So how cruel to realize
You had a woman all the time
But my love burned bright as the sun
The clouds may come, the clouds may go
And I’ll still be here at your door

And I believe in love…

Thank you for waiting through my lovers
Knowing we could come home to each other
Yes, I have waited through these winters
My true one was right here

And I believe in love..

Oh you get me ready in your 56 chevy
Why don’t we go sit down in the shade
Take shelter on my front porch
The dandy lion sun scorching
Like a glass of cold lemonade
I will do laundry if you pay all the bills

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Where is my John Wayne
Where is my prairie song
Where is my happy ending
Where have all the cowboys gone

Why don’t you stay the evening
Kick back and watch the TV
And I’ll fix a little something to eat
Oh I know your back hurts from working on the tractor
How do you take your coffee my sweet
I will raise the children if you pay all the bills

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I am wearing my new dress tonight
But you don’t, but you don’t even notice me
Say goodbyes
Say goodbyes
Say goodbyes

We finally sell the chevy
When we had another baby
And you took the job in tennessee
You made friends at the farm
And you joined them at the bar
Almost every single day of the week

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I will wash the dishes while you go have a beer
Where is my Marlboro man
Where is his shiny gun
Where is my lonely ranger
Where have all the cowboys gone
Yippee yo, yippee yeah

I’m siphoning gas from the high school bus
Into the tank of my beat-up bug
So I can drive away from the shouting and misery
I drive into the night, to the hill to the water tower
To lie on my back and drink in the meteor shower
Knowing that many men have lain as I do now
Ptolemy, Copernicus, Carl Jung
Pondering his existence, pondering
Is God with me now?

And I look to the sky
And I ask these questions
Yes, I feel something I don’t understand
Can somebody say Amen?

My life is but a short and precious seed
Like three seasons of life in a leaf on a tree
And when I cascade to the ground I will not be done
I will mingle with the earth and give life
To the roots again

Can somebody say Amen?

And I look to the sky
And I ask these questions
Yes, I feel something I don’t understand
Can somebody say Amen?
Amen for the drivers in their garbage trucks
Amen for our mothers, for the lust to fuck
Amen for the child with innocent eyes
Amen for Kevorkian and the right to die
Amen for NASA, the NSA
It’s all a front anyway
Amen for Marilyn Manson, Saddam Hussein
Amen for America and the Milky Way
Amen for Elvis, for Betty Page
Amen for Gloria Steinem and Ronald Reagan
Ame for O.J., Clinton too
Amen for the Republican witch hunt coup
Amen for Gandhi, for Malcolm X
Amen for the uprising of the weaker sex
Amen for Babylon, the third world’s call
Amen for the unity of us all
AMEN, AMEN, AMEN

And I am not unique
We are all leaves on this great big tree
This tree that is life, that is God, that is you, that is me
And I lie under my tree like the Buddhas before and after me
And I ask the stars, “What for?”
Yes, I feel something I can’t explain
A light that flickers off and on again
And I look to the sky
And I ask these questions
Yes, I feel something I don’t understand
Oh, can somebody say Amen?

Love, love

You make me feel like a sticky pistil…
leaning into a stamen
You make me feel like a mister sunshine…
Himself
You make me feel like splendor in the grass…
While we’re rollin’
DAMN SKIPPY BABY
You make me feel like the Amazon’s runnin’ between…
my thighs

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You make me feel love, love, love, love, love
love, love, love, love, love
You make me feel love, love, love, love, love
love, love, love, love

You make me feel like a candy apple
All red and horny
You make me feel like I wanna be a dumb blonde
In a centerfold, the girl next door
And I would open the door and…
I’d be all wet
With my tits soaking through this tiny little t-shirt…
That I’m wearing
And you would open the door and tie…
Me up to the bed

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Lover, but I don’t know who I am
Am I Barry White? Am I Isis? Ohhh…
Lover, I’m laced with your unconscious
Oh baby babe babe baby
I will be your Desdemona ahhhhh…

Take your time

You make me feel Ahaa
You make me feel WooWoo baby
You make me feel Ahaa mmm
You make me feel loved

So open up your morning light
And say a little prayer for I
you know that if we are to stay alive
Then see the peace in every eye

She had two babies. One was six months, one was three
In the war of ‘44
Every telephone ring, every heartbeat stinging
When she thought it was God calling her
Oh would her son grow to know his father?

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I don’t want to to wait for our lives to be over
I want to know right now what will it be
I don’t want to wait for our lives to be over
Will it be yes or will it be sorry?

He showed up all wet on the rainy front step
Wearing shrapnel in his skin
And the war he saw lives inside him still
It’s so hard to be gentle and warm
The years pass by and now he has granddaughters

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You look at me from across the room
You’re wearing your anguish again
Believe me I know the feeling
It sucks you into the jaws of anger
So breathe a little more deeply my love
All we have is this very moment
And I don’t want to do what his father
and his father, and his father did
I want to be here now

So open up your morning light
And say a little prayer for I
You know that if we are to stay alive
Then see the love in every eye

Whether it be across that sea
Kosove, Baghdad, Korea
Or here at home, right under our fingertips
In new slavery prison systems

Holding one in four black American brothers
The one percent wealthy profiteering
From the business that is war
Yeah, go to war

God is watching us play our ghetto wars
God is watching us play our games
God is waiting for us to overcome
God is wating for us to just love one another

Whether we be cracker or black or
Brown, red, yellow
From the land of sky or sea
We are family
Wake up and see

Our planet is a tiny atom in God’s kingdom
It’s our only home
A new millennium
Can we all just get along?

God is watching us play our ghetto wars
God is watching us play our games
God is waiting for us to overcome
God is wating for us to just love one another

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Carmen, I don’t know if I can go back
Carmen, I’ll never be the same again
Carmen, Carmen, Carmen..

The way you set the table
The way you lean into tell me something soft
The way I can see into you
The way you tell me I talk too much about myself
It’s true, I talk too much about myself
But right now I want to talk about you now

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I love the way you think
Is it biological or all the acid you’ve eaten?
Just take me to your body
I want to be high I want to be drunk
I want to be high on you

I remember the pain in my mother’s eyes
I remember the pain of her compromise years ago
I always wanted to help to make it go away
I didn’t know it was her freedom that she needed so

And she said to me, she said to me:

He hitch-hiked to Maine
We went cross-country
I had to leave my home
I had to raise a family
We did the best we could being so young
We tried so hard to build a happy home

I never knew what to say to anybody
I didn’t know what to do, I was far too young
But everybody could feel the suffocation
Underneath the facade of a happy home

And she said to me, she said to me:

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Home sweet freedom, flowing in my eyes
Home sweet freedom, flowing in my mind

Sacrificed her dreams to motherhood
Waiting and waiting to be understood fully
Sacrificed her years to the family
Waiting and waiting to be heard finally

And she said to me, she said to me…

The autumn leaves drift by my window
The autumn leaves all red and gold
I see your lips
The summer kisses
The sunburned hand I used to hold
But since you went away
the days grow long
and soon now hear a winter song
But now I miss you most of all
My darling
And autumn leaves are starting to fall
The autumn leaves drift by my window
The autumn leaves all red and gold
I’ll see your lips
The summer kisses
The sunburned hands I used to hold
But since you went away
the days grow long and soon now hear
a winter song
I miss you most of all
My darling
When autumn leaves start to fall
When autumn…

Lost in another world, oh Saturn, Saturn Girl

Far away, to an infinite world I escape
I’m clear and calm, I’m unafraid
Sunless days, in my sheltered Milky Way
In Saturn’s rings I feel no pain

In my heart, in my head
Oh the Saturn Girl has always bled
No you’re not, from this world
Saturn Girl

I can’t explain, why I don’t belong to the same world
I don’t fit in, and I will not stay
I want to fly, oh I long for my violet skies
My astral nights, my peace of mind

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Lost in another world, oh Saturn, Saturn Girl
Saturn Girl, I’d rather be lost in my empyrean world
Than be down on earth

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Everybody tries to break my dreams to break through
They don’t believe in my words, they don’t believe in my world
“Oh you’re lost you Saturn Girl, oh you crazy girl
Oh you Saturn Girl”...

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Long white arms losing their strength and form
Sixty year man on twenty year old skin
Skeleton your eyes have lost their warmth
And look to your father for some support

Hush, hush, hush….says your Daddy’s touch.
Sleep, sleep, sleep….says the hundredth sheep
Peace, peace, peace….May you go in peace.

Cruel joke you waited so long to show
The one that you wanted wasn’t a girl
All your life you kept it hidden inside
Now when you step, you stumble, you die

Oh maybe next time you’ll be Henry the Eighth
Wake up tomorrow Alexander the Great
Open your eyes in a new life again
Oh maybe next tme you’ll be given a chance

Hush, hush, hush..

Pulling on the apron strings looking up
Standing on the chair to be grown up
I feel so little, I need my pillow
I hate the time, I hate the clock
I want to be a dog or I want to be a rock

Sunday’s pancakes Miss Mary Mack
Color Polariods show my heart attack
In my second-hand pants and dusty shoes
The day that the playground laughed at my shoes
It’s my birthday next week and what I want please
Is to turn on the heat so the fish won’t freeze
The fish in the tank froze and died last week
Oh I want to be a dog or I want to be a leaf

Quarry miners, fishermen
In my town of Bethlehem
Picket fences, church at ten
No star above my Bethlehem

Now I’m only 16 and I think I have an ulcer
I’m hiding my sex behind a dirty sweatshirt
I’ve lost five pounds these past few days
Trying to be class president and get straight A’s, well,
Who gives a shit about that anyway?
I want to be a dog or a lump of clay

Still I’m tired of standing still
Tired of living - still
Everyday I dream of leaving

Everybody’s talking about Becky’s bust
The boys on the basketball team just fuck
The same ten girls, who don’t know who they are
They’re looking for some comfort in the back of a car
The six-packs of beer, the locker room jeers
I don’t want to be me, I don’t want to be here

Red brick schoolhouse, dead end dirt roads, daffodils
No star above my Bethlehem

I want to be a dog or I want to be a rock
I don’t want to be me, I don’t want to be here
Bethlehem

I slip out the backdoor into the night
I can still feel the sun on my bare feet tonight
I am waiting to meet you
And waiting to see if you feel the same way about me

Back in the 70’s
We were children of freedom
Believing we’d make a difference when our time would come
And in the darkness
When the 4th grade movie played
Our fingers touched togethe promising one day…that…

Tomorrow I will be yours
Tomorrow I will be yours
Out on a boat with the bell from the shore and the sun so low (so low or solo??)

I think I fell in love with ya
When we always tied for first
In clothes with holes and shoes too old and covered in dirt
Always makin’ me laugh
Now you’re - you’re making me cry
Your parents made some money and sent you away
To a private prep school high…but

I slip out the backdoor and into the night
To the elm tree we promised we’d meet here tonight
I have opened the skin with my grandmothers pin
And we vowed under the stars to never forget
Midnight Orion is clear in the sky
I can feel you come closer to kiss me goodnight
Oh please kiss me and hold me and have me again
You’re the one that I wanted

Tomorrow I will be yours (x4)
Out on a boat with the bell from the shore, and the sun so low

Yeah Yeah
Yeah Yeah
Yeah Yeah

I slip out the backdoor and into the night
All the years now between us dividing our lives
I hear that you married in New Orleans
And I wonder if you wonder still about me
Slip out the backdoor and into the night
To the elm tree I go and I laugh at Orion
Cause there in the bark lies our hearts in the tree
Side by side
Freshly carved
Not by me

Out on the lawn Labor Day
Popsicle melts down your face
Cicadas beat their wings
Barbecued chicken and meat

When will it snow?
When will it snow?

Sweat holds the pennies in place
I stick fifteen on your face
The soles of our feet have been baked
I wish I were back in May

When will it snow?
When will it snow?

And God only knows
How free I can feel tonight
I’ve longed with the moon
Under the water I go
I touch the ocean floor
The sand in my fingertips
The sound in my head
Nobody knows what I know
Nobody knows what I’m feeling
Nobody knows what I feel
Nobody knows

When will it snow?

Concerts are free Sunday night
Come hear the songs by seaside
Lawnchairs and popcorn and ice
Postcards from east oceanside